As a young and fairly precocious teenager it seemed the world was my oyster. I won prizes for my academic success. I achieved recognition for my prowess on the sports field and enjoyed home life in the bosom of a large, loving family. But all that was to change.
Whilst undergoing my ‘A Levels’, I became ill and suffered the first breakdown of what was to become a recurring nightmare over the next 20+ years. What followed was a Helter Skelter ride of severe depressive moods, lurking in the shadows of human existence, followed by all too brief periods of calm normality and then the sublime highs of an indestructible mania. The ride was turbulent, tortured and often too much for those around me.
I knew somewhere within me that there was so much more to this existence than the relentless struggle of keeping up appearances, so much more than the drug-induced monotone of sensory deprivation, and so much more than the inverted social hierarchies which praised the material and spurned the spiritual.
Salvation came from an unlikely source – a chance encounter in a troubled moment, a picture on a library wall, a subsequent telephone call and an invitation to a Sahaja Yoga meeting in someone’s home. For me, I had no great initial revelation, no strong sensation, no earth-shattering, mind-blowing experience but an intuitive knowledge that I had come home. My heart felt open for the first time in ages and it dawned on me that I, like so many in England, had been running away from this experience.
A year later and I was in Bombay, India, attending a clinic which specialised in Sahaja Yoga treatments. This was the breakthrough, the moment of sublime realisation. It was to be my ‘time’. I had the experience of real ‘Kundalini’ awakening. I could feel this energy, which lies within each of us, coming out of the top of my head as a cool breeze.
I then knew that what had been referred to by the great prophets in their scriptures and by many evolved souls was a living reality, and it was happening to me! I could not deny it, even though my background was that of an atheistic Physics Undergraduate. I can’t say that my life was now completely free from moods and altered states but that, at last, I had a mechanism for coping and that this mechanism had been lying dormant within me.
Once awakened, this Kundalini, which lies within the Sacrum bone, can gradually cleanse our problems, both physical and emotional and burn away the layers of detritus that we build up through our lives. We are restored to innocence and purity and love, and all of those higher qualities, that we know to lie within us, start to manifest.
When I look around at my fellow Sahaja Yogis, I look at a reflection of my own salvation. I look at these lovely people who, like me, pilgrims, have travelled far but are reaching our destination. We’re coming home. Sahaja Yoga is not a sanctuary for the few but a simple system of Meditation which takes only a short time each day
When done with love and devotion it will change your life and the lives of those around you. It represents the highest ideals of the human spirit and its practice unlocks the beauty within you, that is often hidden from view.
My life has been given back to me. I have returned from the shadows. I am very grateful. Above all I am sure this is something we have to share.
We all have the same origin and the same destiny. We are connected in ways which are not yet understood by scientific endevour. Evolving, as we have, from Amoeba to Astronaut, from simple beginnings to great complexity, was not by chance.
The emergence of our realisation through Kundalini awakening carries us to that next plane of evolution to transcend the intellect and conditionings and take our place upon the next great stage.
I have my seat and the play is about to start. I invite everyone to come and enjoy the show !