On the 11th march 1991 I went along to a Sahaja Yoga meeting held in Coventry England, it was there I had the most unforgettable and uplifting experience in my life I received self realisation, an awakening of my spirit, the lights were switched on and I felt alive.
I was twenty five years old then and had a very difficult life already, suffering from behavourial problems in early childhood progressing into hardcore drug abusing /criminal lifestyle all through my teenage years and beyond.
Just before receiving self realisation i was in very poor condtition physically ,mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I felt pretty hopeless, desparate just to feel normal whatever being normal was, confused about my own wellness and my place in life. I tried many times to ’sort myself out’ changing locations, meeting different people and seeking help from sources that have limitations when comes to helping a person understand what he really is. Frustratingly I always ended up back in the same street, stuck in the same cycle of self destruction and emptiness.
During this difficult period I had a deep instinct of the exsistence of some power within that could liberate and balance you ’sort you out’ and the origin would be divine or spiritual not psycological or physical. I started reading books on meditation and enlightenment and often noticed references to kundalini energy which aroused interest, It became clearer that this energy is perhaps an interface between the mundane human exsistence and the real experience of the divine in your everyday life.
I saw a poster for Sahaja Yoga one day while eating a bowl of goulash in a cafe, it seemed to say all the right things, also that its free when everybody else wanted your money ’suspect’ this meant a lot considering I had no money anyway.That evening I received realisation in a small meeting house and began to meditate at home, the change and transformation started immedeatley. After meditating for seven weeks and with genourous loving help of the local Sahaja yogis working on my subtle system there was dramatic improvement in my overall health, one unforgettable experience was staying with sahaja yogis for a week end and sharing with them some of my adventures in life and just having such a roaring laugh , i mean the kind of laughing that makes you cry and makes your sides hurt for days after. This was such a blessing after having a heavy heart for so long. I went to visit my family, when i walked through the door they couldnt beleave it was me because i was so well from the last time they saw me, it inspired the whole family and cousins to go to a sahaja yoga programme the next day I didnt have to say anything . They got realisation, they dont practice meditation but my mother has the upmost respect for sahaja yoga because she has witnessed how it has helped her son get allright , she is quite proud now.
There is so much more to share with you about sahaj experiences it would take much longer than this brief testimonal,words alone cannot express the joy and knowledge and importance of sahaja yoga for the whole human race, this is only become possible with the grace of Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi whos heart is big enough to love the whole planet and more .I would like to thank you from the deepest part of my heart for giving me my life back and spreading so much love to every nation.